I took the time to search myself
to free me from a deepening canyon;
I was all too lost to be a victor.
I had drowned myself in other people,
I wanted to be like them-
nomads,
lost in a modern era of
stagnant ideologies
and a juxtaposition called life
So I raced to the end of what faceless humans handed me
stagnant ideologies
and a juxtaposition called life
So I raced to the end of what faceless humans handed me
I choked on their diplomas
regurgitated formulas
analyzed what had already been
just so I could please the plenty
then disappoint the few
who thought I was different-
because dream-chasers
and nightwatchers
are children of the sky
who use it as a cover
to resurrect the promise buried
by redundant dead end jobs
and cramped office spaces
I write to apologize
to every version of me
who didn't make it
because I murdered them-
still born-
in the process of dreams:
the pilot
the doctor
the architect
the painter
the wife of the hypocrite prophet
Beethoven's mistress
the dreamer
the pianist t
he violinist;
the death certificate is heavy with their names-
a miscarriage is never easy to swallow.
I promise,
one day
I will shed my armor
and no longer be the terminator of my dreams
one day
i will carry full term the pain
like a nine month promise turned to joy,
one day
my dreams will not scare me
and I will step out of the skin they created for me,
one day-
because 'One day'
is any day
with a new name.
With Love, SylJoe
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